earlier i hung up the phone with mixed feelings. i called her. the nice girl i met out west i mean. i'm not sure what to think, or rather, i'm not sure what she thinks of me. it is the age old problem i suppose: i have difficulties deciphering what members of the opposite sex are thinking. figuring out what a girl from my own country is thinking when she's standing in front of me is a challenge. this becomes more challenging when talking over the phone with no visual cues to help out. it becomes even more difficult when the girl is from a foreign land and next to impossible when english is not her mother tongue. so here i am...wondering, worrying. time will reveal the answers but i don't feel patient right now.