Friday, August 31, 2001
i'm planning on heading home after work today for the long weekend (monday is labour day in canada). it's a 9hr drive and i'm feeling pretty spaced out right now from the drugs i've been taking for the sore throat/cough/cold that hit me on tuesday. at least i'm not going alone: a friend and her boyfriend are riding with me.
Thursday, August 30, 2001
Wednesday, August 29, 2001
sometimes i really hate myself. i wish i was outgoing instead of shy. i wish i always knew what to say (i'd settle for knowing what to say even part of the time.) i am the social equivalent of a chameleon...not because i adapt myself to the people around me, but because nobody notices me, nobody remembers me and no one would notice if i wasn't there. i'm really upset with myself right now because this past weekend i met her again. the girl i met a couple of weeks ago on the west coast. i should have been talking to her, getting to know her better, instead i hardly talked to her at all and when i was with her i couldn't think of anything to say. she's still coming out here in a couple weeks for maybe five days before she heads back to belgium unless she changes her mind but any chance i had to be someone she cared about is gone. i've messed up. the worst part is, if i had it to do all over again i don't know what i would do differently. i can't change the fact that i'm quiet and shy. i can't change the fact that i didn't have anything to say. quite frankly i don't think there's any hope for me. is there?
Friday, August 24, 2001
Thursday, August 23, 2001
Wednesday, August 22, 2001
Tuesday, August 21, 2001
Sunday, August 19, 2001
i fell 3000 feet from an airplane yesterday and survived...with a little
help from a parachute. skydiving is an incredible experience. i was
more nervous during the training (7 hours of it) than i was once we got
into the little cessna and took off. once i let go of the wing there
was no time to feel fear before i felt the reassuring tug of the
parachute. with the chute open it felt more like flying. people
probably don't realize how controllable today's modern chute is. i will
be going again as soon as i can.
Saturday, August 18, 2001
Thursday, August 16, 2001
oops. sorry about the ugly test posts that were showing up earlier. i was testing out userland's free radio software and its new mail-to-blogger functionality. this is all possible because evan williams has published an xml-rpc api for posting to a blogger blog. back to our regularly scheduled programming.
Tuesday, August 14, 2001
earlier i hung up the phone with mixed feelings. i called her. the nice girl i met out west i mean. i'm not sure what to think, or rather, i'm not sure what she thinks of me. it is the age old problem i suppose: i have difficulties deciphering what members of the opposite sex are thinking. figuring out what a girl from my own country is thinking when she's standing in front of me is a challenge. this becomes more challenging when talking over the phone with no visual cues to help out. it becomes even more difficult when the girl is from a foreign land and next to impossible when english is not her mother tongue. so here i am...wondering, worrying. time will reveal the answers but i don't feel patient right now.
Monday, August 13, 2001
some details from last week's trip. we had a great time although things were rather wet the first four days. monday, tuesday and wednesday were beautiful though. went ocean kayaking on monday for the first time. tuesday we explored victoria's inner harbour. wednesday we hung out in vancouver until it was time to catch our flight back.
oh and most importantly...i met a very nice girl that i'm anxiously waiting to hear from again...
Friday, August 10, 2001
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